I made it to May

is it bad luck if you don't focus on the cat?

I'm reading someone and I have a lot of catching up to do. This person posts relentlessly and it's awesome.

Some quick notes today. My procrastination is once again smacking me in the head with a reasonably heavy hammer but it's the rubber mallet type and it's very repetitive. Think water torture but on the back of your dome and every 2 seconds.

Thump. Thump. Thump. It makes me blink hard.

No ripe watermelons here, just a good chunk of panic.

I usually come through in the end but I'm starting this race tired and there's so much more going on with it that I really could just sleep. I told my roomate today that if I'm going to be tired every day that I might as well have something to show for it. I was thinking of givng up sleep for lent. Except it's not close to that time of year, I'm not catholic and I'm a real asshole when I don't sleep for 2-3 days. It's been done, just not nicely. I will get it done but it involves more trudging through boxes of a life that doesn't exist anymore in order to put some of it away for good.

Ignorance is not bliss when it comes back to stare at you in the face and says nothing to help you along.