'you feel that?

Gotta rush like mad. Film for tonight, should have bought it last night but had to work late. Place closes at 6 PM. Gotta go there if I wanna get some faster speed stuff without paying ridiculous prices at Wolf or someshit. Pray for the student discount...damn when am I going to stop being a student..never hopefully..student of life blah blah...get back on track..get the decent stuff, this show happens once a year at the most and he's a friend, get the good shit, some black and white too, then you can make prints in the darkroom without too much trouble, don't forget your other cam has the cloud layers you want to double up with this tonight...fuck, where'd I put my keys?..ok barely made it, hit the cooler, I can't believe that traffic, makes me want to move to canada and ride my bike everywhere..too much..ok cooler?..no..the HP5 is over here, but it's only 400, fuck I love that film though, maybe a roll of 3200 to get scary fat grain...am i packing the holga tonight too.. yeah better, too bad I didn't have any of this to roll myself, would have been a fifth of this price, not that i had the money anyway, where the fuck DID that money go...friday payday..finally..give it to the government...shit i better file an extension cuz it just ain't there...glad i got that flash for free..looks pretty pro too..i didn't use that lens anyways...don't forget batteries either and the digi just in case everything goes to shit you're not standing there with your hand on your junk...ok cool, put it on the card...that hurt but it's gotta be done...maybe SPIN will pick up a shot or two..haha..that made me laugh and set a butterfly in my stomach..I should ask Paule how to submit to them, he had a fucking CONTRACT to do their stuff for a year, surely he can slide them a frame from me...damn....ok gotta get to the bank, not even my bank..the credit union to hook up that piece of change that mom's kicked in there for me...when's THAT going to stop...should I hook up a cheap 6-pack and drink it up that way cuz fuck knows I got the door pass but nobody drinks for free no matter how many names you think you could drop...shouldn't think that way anyways...gotta support the love...no matter what...do i even need to go to that bank tonight...If there weren't so many cars I wouldn't care but damn, back across the freeway?..that makes no sense and I think I need to buy gas...anyways fuck you warmongers...got fuel in the old VW but since I need to change every dead fucking sparkplug I better forget that idea right now...put that on the list for Saturday...change plugs, gotta get the socket too, damn and an extension...why did I buy that car again?...yeah you know, so just suck it up and get ready to play mechanic like you wanted...hope someone I know...fuck that..fuck this trafficc backwards! i'm going home, gotta give the pups some love..was gone from 9-12 last night...that was a hard blast from the past..gotta seek that forgiveness but can't invest in it if it doesn't happen..gotta accept it let it go...that's the path..get on it...wonder if those kids will get in the darkroom soon...thats like four new people if they're serious...she looked intense about it...seriously lady are you trying to thwart my every move in this lane!?...that's not right, get your shit cool, you got to get some sleep before this show so think cool, like freddy jackson drinkin' a milkshake in a snowstorm, fuck, get an original thought once in a while too...where's your book..?...knock something off your list before you crash and walk them pretty dogs up the street before they disown you and your guilt beats your ass all day tomorrow...should have done more visible work today...but fuck..had to get some air...like now..thank the sun that i have more light to run these dogs around and give love later...better book that ticket for may before the price goes up too...damn...have I just passed my house?...